11-27-2004, 09:18 PM
Hello there friends ^_^ sorry ive not been able to post in a while. i've been busy at the moment trying to cheer myself up but its goin abit haywire im gaining weight. damn icecream and choclate (every womans best friend in times like theses 
aswell as anime). I like the way things change on this forum all the threads take wierd twists and turns off topic. alot go onto being childish ive noticed.hehehe boys will be boys 
lately ive been trying to forget him and it kinda helped. though he is always on my mind. im trying well until i can see him again or something. ive stopped looking at his emails now. i really hate myself for letting the insecurity get to me and invade someones privacy like that. if the same happened to me i would be disgusted so im such a loser for doing so
. he's not contacted me in a while,but he was always a busy guy and never was one for emailing much.though he made an effort at first. thanks again to those that have tried to help me Andromeda_18, Blight, Ryo of Inferno, rav96, ladysilverice and Sweet_Marie
my mind frame is very edgy and jumpy and abit depressed at the moment but i should be able to cope.ive missed alot of things lately and tried to join a club but ended up locking myself in my room. somehow ive placed myself under house arrest i just dont feel like getting up anymore and doing things, i wish i could be myself again at times even think i would have been better before i met him.but i Love him i guess and thats what matters.
sometimes things i regret i did with him like my guard and being quite on and off replay in my mind and its hard to not get down because of it but its gettin better now.Nice to hear that people like Sweet_Marie are waiting for the one. i think ive found it in him but then what others say maybe true. im not so sure now i was 100% but now like 80%-hehe. And it makes sense that guys would like sex.thought they all did. but us women arent that bothered by it. infact i think its overatted and just so big because of the social taboo/stigma that sex has. i dont know many people as ive told you lot. but all the guys ive met have had it when they were in their teens and its hard to believe that there are guys that save themselves from what ive come across but its refreshing to hear it.
Ryo from what ive raed you seem like you have it hard aswell, im not sure on what to say but i agree with most others that you should stick up for yourself buut wait till you are less depended. and itstrue Sweet_Marie learning to love yourself is like one of the hardest things ever. im just so insecure, i was thinking of posting a picture but not sure probably wont wish i could get rid of my chubiness so am thinkin of joiing a gym if i can muster up the courage i still dont know what aesthetics he see'd in me and it hurts as he is so beautiful. i did look through that picture thread and most of you guys are kawaii and we do have pretty girls aswell.
aswell as anime). I like the way things change on this forum all the threads take wierd twists and turns off topic. alot go onto being childish ive noticed.hehehe boys will be boys lately ive been trying to forget him and it kinda helped. though he is always on my mind. im trying well until i can see him again or something. ive stopped looking at his emails now. i really hate myself for letting the insecurity get to me and invade someones privacy like that. if the same happened to me i would be disgusted so im such a loser for doing so
. he's not contacted me in a while,but he was always a busy guy and never was one for emailing much.though he made an effort at first. thanks again to those that have tried to help me Andromeda_18, Blight, Ryo of Inferno, rav96, ladysilverice and Sweet_Mariemy mind frame is very edgy and jumpy and abit depressed at the moment but i should be able to cope.ive missed alot of things lately and tried to join a club but ended up locking myself in my room. somehow ive placed myself under house arrest i just dont feel like getting up anymore and doing things, i wish i could be myself again at times even think i would have been better before i met him.but i Love him i guess and thats what matters.
sometimes things i regret i did with him like my guard and being quite on and off replay in my mind and its hard to not get down because of it but its gettin better now.Nice to hear that people like Sweet_Marie are waiting for the one. i think ive found it in him but then what others say maybe true. im not so sure now i was 100% but now like 80%-hehe. And it makes sense that guys would like sex.thought they all did. but us women arent that bothered by it. infact i think its overatted and just so big because of the social taboo/stigma that sex has. i dont know many people as ive told you lot. but all the guys ive met have had it when they were in their teens and its hard to believe that there are guys that save themselves from what ive come across but its refreshing to hear it.
Ryo from what ive raed you seem like you have it hard aswell, im not sure on what to say but i agree with most others that you should stick up for yourself buut wait till you are less depended. and itstrue Sweet_Marie learning to love yourself is like one of the hardest things ever. im just so insecure, i was thinking of posting a picture but not sure probably wont wish i could get rid of my chubiness so am thinkin of joiing a gym if i can muster up the courage
i still dont know what aesthetics he see'd in me and it hurts as he is so beautiful. i did look through that picture thread and most of you guys are kawaii and we do have pretty girls aswell.