Irritation

[Andromeda18_]

plus, how the hell do u deal with living in a fucked up home? i cant really blame my friend for what he does, cause compared to the rest of his family, hes a pretty amazing guy.

anywho... thats just what i think :confused:

btw: how do u know all that stuff about the brain????

You deal, somehow you deal. My parents got divorced when I was still a baby, on account of that I didn't see my father very often and when I was 7 he moved to Angola where he has lived ever since. So basically it's like I don't have a father. It really isn't as bad as it sounds because I believe you can't miss what you've never had so...
I lived with my mother until I was 9 but because she brutally spanked me and treated me like a slave I was taken away from her by a court order and went to live with my grandmother.
So you see, I understand perfectly what you mean when you ask "how the hell do u deal with living in a fucked up home" but the truth is you deal. Some people turn to drugs others don't, I still think taking the easy way out is a sign of weakness.

By the way, I know all of that about the brain because I watch a lot of documentaries on tv, I also read a lot and do research about stuff like that, it's something that's always interested me.

but ultimately its what makes you stronger but then maybe even cold... its hard reopening yourself up to vunerability then being stabbed many a times..."TRUE FRIENDS STAB YOU IN THE FRONT" remember that people. its hard to have your self esteem up even if you show it as a front..where most peole think yeah this kids got it good and is self confident..little do they know its mainly a front and they cant open up to people nowwaday as the guard has become so high..when you finally do... its gonna be hard and a mentally unstable ride...thats when you wake up one morning and realise youve turned iinto a freaken EMO kid :p

What you mentioned about the guard becoming very high is indeed true. It's like you built these high walls around you and hardly anybody can get in anymore. Despite that I can definitely say I'm not a freaken EMO, and I'm very stable at the moment. It's not like I was ever unstable, I'm a bit of a control freak so I don't usually let my emotions run high. I do have somewhat of a bad temper but who doesn't?