Irritation

[rav96]

btw: how do u know all that stuff about the brain????

easy its called look it up or watch a TV prog on it :p

btw i was never a disrespectfull Teen i was the guy that all the other kids parents said to there kids to be like..i was very supressed and down trotten growing up.. my parents had an arranged marraige and arguements have always been aplenty as well as the ruininng of my moms life..but growing up i was maybe even sheltered to an extent in some aspects... most people assume your life was always happy when you are an "A" grade student as a kid...but most people in harsh home environments turn to drugs etc and deliquancy... where as others turn to things to try and get merit and worth..ultimately praise to fill the void like i did back then...
attention is what you seeked be it via the police via deliquancy or teachers via grades

may be thats why now im goin through a more unstable patch instead of being at it in my teens...emotional development differs genetically but the environment has the largest impact...just look at seperated twin they are freakliy similar yet different. You can be matured at an age far beyond your years and then later becom immature at points trying to reclaim the youth you lost...maybe thats why i like "cartoons" more now than while growing up :p

the scars will always remain but they heal with age, im glad to hear people like Andromeda18_ kept afloat and strong through adversity...but you can have the strength in exterior yet be weak on the inside. ive made my mistakes in my moments of weakness (maybe even self pitty at times no make that self hate - its what scars the most) but ultimately its what makes you stronger but then maybe even cold... its hard reopening yourself up to vunerability then being stabbed many a times..."TRUE FRIENDS STAB YOU IN THE FRONT" remember that people. its hard to have your self esteem up even if you show it as a front..where most peole think yeah this kids got it good and is self confident..little do they know its mainly a front and they cant open up to people nowwaday as the guard has become so high..when you finally do... its gonna be hard and a mentally unstable ride...thats when you wake up one morning and realise youve turned iinto a freaken EMO kid :p

Life was never easy...it has to be worked at and then conquered