09-03-2004, 02:16 AM
kakomu Wrote:Bleh, stop bitching about AP classes. They aren't hard. I took 7 AP and Honors classes total my senior and Junior year. I hate school because I'm miserable here. The amount of posturing all the students do here is obnoxious. I doubt I will have a decent relationship with any girl here because of how stuck up they all are. I hate going to class, I hate reading and listening to dry material. I hate having no money to get myself something nice every once and a while, becuase I can't find a decent job to hold down. Everything nice I have, I bought when I was a senior in high school. That means my computer, CD player, Car radio and DVD collection are basically remnants of shit I bought over 2 years ago. On top of that, my personality just clashes with so many other people's personalities, I find it hard making friends and I don't want to conform to some personality that isn't mine. I am miserable here.
Well, that indeed doesn't sound like you'll look back at those days with joy. Didn't you know what kind of school you were going to when you chose it? And can't you switch to a school you do like next semester?
Work is all good in the first couple of years cause you just don't know what to do with the money. I started working full time when I was still living at home and could save half my salary for later and have enough left to do whatever I wanted. Then you go to live on your own and the half you used to save goes to the bills and the half you had to spend goes to food and fun stuff. My saved money went into my appartment and now I'm back to where I started only with alot of possesions.
I have a desk job which I need because of my weak back caused by lifting weights. I have worked here for 6 years which were ok because my coleagues are cool but the work is really getting repetitive (by that I mean sitting at a desk all day). The depresion starts when I think of the comming 40 years and see myself still sitting at a desk at 65. Fuck that! Then I think about how it was in school and things were alot more fun, which is all that's important in life. But I'm just going to keep sitting here because as Rarnom said, its good to have job security and that you're sure you'll be able to pay the bills. Still I wish I had stayed in school a couple of more years just for all the fun and vacation you have. Think about it. When you start working you start a new period in your life thats going to last for atleast 40 years. Couple of years of extra school doesn't sound so bad all of a sudden.