04-02-2003, 03:41 PM
He's put me to the point where I had no hope, no reason to live, nothing, just a big black void, & both times we some how, God only knows became friends again. But, the second time it happened, I swore if what made the first two times happened happened again, I would kill him, & I right back near the breaking point again.
Do you know what it's like to figure out that you have nothing to live for, & have to drag yourself against your owwill not to kill yourself & try to find some shread of hope, just to have it happened again, & now again?
It's driven me to do things, which were all my fault, bt I stil perfer to blame him, the one who put me i the position to even consider some of the strange things I've done.
I made him, he made me, & now he'll make me kill him.
Do you know what it's like to figure out that you have nothing to live for, & have to drag yourself against your owwill not to kill yourself & try to find some shread of hope, just to have it happened again, & now again?
It's driven me to do things, which were all my fault, bt I stil perfer to blame him, the one who put me i the position to even consider some of the strange things I've done.
I made him, he made me, & now he'll make me kill him.
My Soul Brings Tears to Satanic Eyes.
If Max Collins, Matt Skiba, Jimmy Urine, & Mark Phillips had a child it would be one fu*ked up mofo, but 'it' would be the God of music.
As-1D R077's temp homepage: http://www.freewebs.com/as1dr077/index.html
If Max Collins, Matt Skiba, Jimmy Urine, & Mark Phillips had a child it would be one fu*ked up mofo, but 'it' would be the God of music.
As-1D R077's temp homepage: http://www.freewebs.com/as1dr077/index.html