09-19-2003, 02:05 PM
Well you see what I hatye or like about my personality isn't exactly what's good or bad about it.
Like the fact I have ashort fuse, but in return I also calm down quickly. Whereas I would much prefer to just explode & kill someone, instead of threaten, & when they finaly get around to standing up to me, me being out of steam, & having to back down.
Another thing, which I've began to get rid of is willingness to forgive. I found that some people shouldn't be forgiven, one of which being myself.
Considering I have had to readjust my life after I quit studing certain crafts I guess you could say I'm over confident, where in the past I could do somethings I still claim I can do, but probably won't ever be able to do again.
And, well if this counts: It's not really Hematodipsia, but kinda close. (I believe that's the term used for it). At certain times I freak out, fill an emptyness in my stomach & a great bloodlust. At which point I just want to jump someone (not random people, there are only certain people whose neck appeal to me) & drain every last drop of blood from their body. Luckly that hasn't happened in a while, & now when it starts to happen I more or less go sit down & write a story or something. The point of that being that I like being different, but sometimes I scare even myself, because I know for the most part I'm a kind person, but there's still just a something that doesn't feel right.
What was listed above is known by few people, for the most part because all my so called friends would rather laugh at me, & that's something I dislike when I'm being serious.
Another thing I'd have to say I dis-like is my fear of little babies, & my willingness to give my life, or go through tons of pain for what I feel is right, without taking into account other's feelings on the subject.
An example being, for the most part I'd be willing to give my life to save almost anyone I've known for 5 seconds, even those I hate, just because I feel that although all live is equal (weither it be bugs, or humans), some people deserve to live, & can do more for the world, & those around them. Now just incase that came out wrong, no I wouldn't give my life for a bug, now have my big toe smashed into the ground is another thing. I'm scared to death of spiders, but still don't like to see them killed.
Like the fact I have ashort fuse, but in return I also calm down quickly. Whereas I would much prefer to just explode & kill someone, instead of threaten, & when they finaly get around to standing up to me, me being out of steam, & having to back down.
Another thing, which I've began to get rid of is willingness to forgive. I found that some people shouldn't be forgiven, one of which being myself.
Considering I have had to readjust my life after I quit studing certain crafts I guess you could say I'm over confident, where in the past I could do somethings I still claim I can do, but probably won't ever be able to do again.
And, well if this counts: It's not really Hematodipsia, but kinda close. (I believe that's the term used for it). At certain times I freak out, fill an emptyness in my stomach & a great bloodlust. At which point I just want to jump someone (not random people, there are only certain people whose neck appeal to me) & drain every last drop of blood from their body. Luckly that hasn't happened in a while, & now when it starts to happen I more or less go sit down & write a story or something. The point of that being that I like being different, but sometimes I scare even myself, because I know for the most part I'm a kind person, but there's still just a something that doesn't feel right.
What was listed above is known by few people, for the most part because all my so called friends would rather laugh at me, & that's something I dislike when I'm being serious.
Another thing I'd have to say I dis-like is my fear of little babies, & my willingness to give my life, or go through tons of pain for what I feel is right, without taking into account other's feelings on the subject.
An example being, for the most part I'd be willing to give my life to save almost anyone I've known for 5 seconds, even those I hate, just because I feel that although all live is equal (weither it be bugs, or humans), some people deserve to live, & can do more for the world, & those around them. Now just incase that came out wrong, no I wouldn't give my life for a bug, now have my big toe smashed into the ground is another thing. I'm scared to death of spiders, but still don't like to see them killed.
My Soul Brings Tears to Satanic Eyes.
If Max Collins, Matt Skiba, Jimmy Urine, & Mark Phillips had a child it would be one fu*ked up mofo, but 'it' would be the God of music.
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If Max Collins, Matt Skiba, Jimmy Urine, & Mark Phillips had a child it would be one fu*ked up mofo, but 'it' would be the God of music.
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