If you are blight then read this!

[Puppet Master]

Honestly speaking some of the greatest writers were either insane or drug addicts, so you might indeed lose that capacity to write "awkward" stories if you start taking meds. Some people will probably think I shouldn't be telling you this but I think you should know things as they are. I still firmly believe you should take meds if you are bi-polar because if you are then you are in serious danger. Bi-polars often commit suicide, when they're depressed they're extremely depressed. Your depression might not even be "natural", if you kow what I mean, just a result of the disease. The euphoria that comes with it isn't great either, people have no common sense and do the most absurd things. Do get tested for bi-polar and treated by a psychiatrist because it will be for the best. Wouldn't you go to the doctor if you had pneumonia?
Oh, and in case you're not bi-polar (I sincerely hope you're not) get tested for ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder) because not being able to focus and never finishing the things you start are symptoms of it.

Yeah that is true about ADD and some of the most intelligent/creative people have had it. But man I have to agree with Andromeda you should get tested for both. The sooner you find out the cause the better and I know that from life experience. I did terrible in school as a kid because of it but now I manage to get straight As and a GPA of 4.0...

I did have to look up bipolar though and I have been through things similar to it before in different periods of time such as extreme depression, thoughts of suicide, and things of that sort. I hope you can get it taken care of though whatever it is and get whatever help it is that you need.

I don't know if anyone can explain this problem though it has been going on since my time of great depression a few years ago and that depressions never fully left. Constantly I feel depressed deep inside I never knew why just do even when I am happy it stays the same. It's really bizzare and I can't figure it out. One possible reason could be bad memories but even im not sure. I only bring it up because I know theres so many people here with different knowledge and theres always a chance that someone may know....