If you are blight then read this!

[Batz Kage]

What do you think is the cause of your stress and depression?

Insecurities that met a catalyst in the form of a girl.

Truthfully I've seemingly suffered from to many things to list; Bi-Polar & depression supossively runs in the family; which so does paranoia in my opnion. Basicly you know how when an animal is corner it kills; my insecurities took me to that point. When in public I felt so cornered no matter where I was; my instinct was that of an animal. I started to talk to myself in my head to distract me from my insercurities & that tyurned to me talking to imaginsary friends, of which were based upon human emotions of sorts which only gave voice to the primal urges.

After finding a cure to this I was left, as I am now totally screwed with it comes to being in public.

Also, the more & more time i spend thinking of myself the more & more I realize that I'm basicly everything the kids that want to be weird wish they were, & becuase they gave kids like me such a bad rep I hated them & changed myself to a degree & I really miss who I was, but at the same time hate it all.

Anyways, I tend to build up stress easily, especially if i feel I'm falling behind on something; & stress makes me depressed, & when I get depressed I slack off at everything & this worsens my stress. So I end up so messed up till I'm about to pop; then it's like my brainn just kind jolts back to working correctly & all of the junk is gone.


Simpley put, I really don't know. i mean there are a million reasons, but thinknig of them from an outsiders point of view they seem so superfical & only make me look like an arse; plus I really fold under the eyes of my peers. Few of them that know so much about me respect me (don't fear) so I always feel uncomfortible being myself. I have a furute that requires me to work with the people that don't understand me so I can't alienate myself from them.

And for all of which I've listed that I constantly suffer from can be helped by medicine, but that would mean that I would be a different person, & I kinda like being me, plus, who would want to go to a shrink that has to take medication just so he can leave the house without cracking?