11-29-2004, 04:26 PM
well the problem is that i grew cold for years...lost so many friends etc because of it. just pushd them away i guess. now for the past year or so ive been allowing myself to feel again and its gone haywire and i just cant stop my brain at times and things that shouldnt matter to me effect me too much. ive sopped watching the news a while back coz all it does i remind you what a fucked up world we live in 
ive lost my faith in humanity and am trying to linger to what little i still have...cant grow cold again as it will lead me to a path i'd not follow
but my guard is up and lowering it hurts the most...i tend to allow myself to be used but i dont know why i do it now
eek im to Emo for my own good...Depressed state of mind thogh can be refreshing and enlightning to ones weakness and how to conquer them can at times just plain ol' Suck
Behemoth Ass

ive lost my faith in humanity and am trying to linger to what little i still have...cant grow cold again as it will lead me to a path i'd not follow
but my guard is up and lowering it hurts the most...i tend to allow myself to be used but i dont know why i do it now

eek im to Emo for my own good...Depressed state of mind thogh can be refreshing and enlightning to ones weakness and how to conquer them can at times just plain ol' Suck
Behemoth Ass

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Wrong way
the...
Right way
then the...
Rav way!
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