I'm not fishing for sympathy, & I can't stand people who do, sorry if it seemed like I was. As for lying I could have understood if she hadn't went out of her way to lie to me, & admits she does that kind of junk to hurt people for her own entertainment, talking about it on here is not only the only way I get her to talk about (she ignores my e-mails, dodges my questions on an instant messenger, & would rather be shot than see me in r/l), & I don't want her to try the same sh!t on someone else as she did on me. But I'll admit, what she did to me wasn't a bif deal, it happens all the time, it's just I don't deal with things as easily as others.
In other words: I don't hate her because she said she loved me & then later hinted that is was a lie, but more of the fact that she won't admit that she lied, went out of her way to try & hurt me, & then everytime I want her to stop leading me on (or so it seems) she starts this crap about she needs me. And then when she finally says she doesn't need me, she says something like "I lied to myself & said I didn't need you, so now I don't." And I come back to her. I can't help the fact even though all this & some other junk, I said I would care for her, & that requires me to believe all her seemingly to be lies.
I just get tried of it, but seeing as how she's trying to be nice, I guess I should finally forgive her, but it'd be a lot easier if she would admit she "used" me...
In other words: I don't hate her because she said she loved me & then later hinted that is was a lie, but more of the fact that she won't admit that she lied, went out of her way to try & hurt me, & then everytime I want her to stop leading me on (or so it seems) she starts this crap about she needs me. And then when she finally says she doesn't need me, she says something like "I lied to myself & said I didn't need you, so now I don't." And I come back to her. I can't help the fact even though all this & some other junk, I said I would care for her, & that requires me to believe all her seemingly to be lies.
I just get tried of it, but seeing as how she's trying to be nice, I guess I should finally forgive her, but it'd be a lot easier if she would admit she "used" me...
My Soul Brings Tears to Satanic Eyes.
If Max Collins, Matt Skiba, Jimmy Urine, & Mark Phillips had a child it would be one fu*ked up mofo, but 'it' would be the God of music.
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If Max Collins, Matt Skiba, Jimmy Urine, & Mark Phillips had a child it would be one fu*ked up mofo, but 'it' would be the God of music.
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